How Does It Feel To Be Awake, On Holidays And Sober At 1:30 In The Morning?

Slightly depressing, alright extremely depressing. I am a sleepless insomniac depressed wreck and I don't know what day it is. I need sleeping pills, right, you need a doctor for that, something that, since my usual clinic closed, I am lacking. Great. Well this is pathetic. I FEEL UNLOVED WAAH! WOE IS ME! Lol, dramatizations help cheer me up. So, imaginary people who care, now I am worried over trivial things like if there is a point to life, and if there is what is the point of that when eventually,we all die? What exactly is our goal? Random quote, "Beauty always comes with dark thoughts"- Nightwish. See how depressing this is? My mind is a rather difficult to live with. I'm so deep sometimes, my train of thought is so chaotic. I like that word. So, while I am immersed in thoughts and how strange everything looks through my eyes, you can go have a life and not be bothered about my self-pity.